Goodbye : Wed Apr 08, 2009 7:18 pm
People just don't understand how powerful gambling is.
I did a whole month of not having a bet but all I felt was pain and a horrific feeling of not being able to go into the bookies to play roulette or bet on Rugby League handicaps.
The lonelyness had killed my life so to speak. The positive's had gone and my low self esteem was making me think about the next bet all the time.
Once the idea was in my head, I couldn't get it out as it repeated and repeated because Im a compulsive gambler.
I have tried and failed and am now again in the **** big time.
Maybe this is a slight relapse but the fact I lost over £400 the other day when I got paid was not good and since that day I have been back betting every day.
Yes I won on the horses, dogs, Rugby League, Roulette etc, but I have blown £800 in just over ten days.
My next GA meeting is not till the 15th next Wednesday and I for one am gutted at telling everyone what I have done and been up to.
Goodbye because people on here think Im just one big mickey take when Im not.