I don't post on here very often but read all the time. Felt compelled to write something today.
I read the news on my half hour lunch break and didn't really have time to take it all in. It was confusing given all we were told by Hood at the time of the Odsal sale about finances being ok and it being to secure the long term future of the club etc.
I've spent the last 3 hours reading this thread, twitter, facebook, news articles to try and find something to help me make my mind up as to whether or not to pledge.
I'm angry at the current board and the mess they have allowed to happen. I don't like to think that they are going to be responsible for what happens to my pledge money. I also don't like not knowing precisely where it is going, what it is for and what happens next.
However I keep coming back to the fact that I've now being going to watch the Bulls for 15 years and they've given me some absolutely awesome memories. Epic victories, agonising defeats, great days out (my family being followed for the day by the BBC cameras when we went to Murrayfield the year it flooded).I spend most of my lunch times at work either reading the forums or League Express and within my family we have 4 season tickets and all go to the matches together. How can I take the chance that this could all end?
The messages from fans from other clubs and seeing how much it means to the Bulls players on twitter (especially Chev Walker who said to one fan that he doesnt play rugby for the money but because he loves the game so much and the cash is just a bonus. I've been guilty of slating Chev in some matches this year for his performances but not anymore).
I'll be paying £100. My girlfriend won't be happy, and I could probably put the money towards something closer to home (we're renovating our house and have tons to do) but I don't think I could live with myself if it all went belly up and I hadn't tried.
Respect to everyone's personal circumstances and views on the matter.
There is no right or wrong answer.
Its a mess and one every Bulls fan could do without, especially as it has recently looked like we are finally turning the corner. I think that's what is making it harder. I said to my dad and brother after the Hull KR game that it seemed like an eternity I'd felt like that at a Bulls game.
I hope it isn't as long for the next time.
As I type this there is a big piece on Calendar on ITV. Robbie Paul encouraging people to pledge. That's the final piece of encouragement I needed.....
.......and just after typing that my girlfriend walked in from work, I told her the news and she isn't mad and has encouraged me to do it! COME ON YOU BULLS!