Likewise I am sad that you are not continuing (particularly as you name checked two of my posts this week!) but understand no one would want to enter a slough of despond every week. I think you were right with the ashen face comments and as I have said elsewhere I cannot remember a game where I felt more depressed afterwards. The feeling remains 24 hours after that debacle.
Fortunately not long now until Skolars kick off to restore some hope.